It’s a clear sign that winter has come when you can not only see your breath, but also the hot steam rising from fresh dog poo. *insert poomoji* On the brightside, it saves me money on buying handwarmers but I do wish Korea would step it’s garbage bin game up.
Please pardon my MIAness again! Kudos to all the bloggers out there cuz maintaining this ain’t easy!
Though I wish I could talk about how great everything has been, what would life be without the ups and the downs. Sometimes, the downs hit you more often than you’d like but what can you do except fight through it!
It’s been almost 6 months now since the launch of VVeWalk, and of course in the beginning, I was so passionate and I felt undeniable confidence in what I was doing. However, instead of growing the business, I realized I just became a dog walker. Even with the blessing of being able to be outdoors everyday, my routes became mundane. I was making enough money that I fell into complacency. Then, I felt discouraged.. pressured.. Burnt out.. which ultimately led to a lot of bullshit excuses I made for why business hasn’t been growing the way I envisioned. I thought about all those ideas that I had and didn’t execute and it snowballed into what I should be doing and NEEDED to do and I got overwhelmed and began to shut down.
As my confidence dwindled, so did my energy and drive. This is something I’ve known for a while, but I’ve never really worked that hard for anything in my life. I got by in life just half assing everything. As my own boss, I’ve gotta be self-motivated. If I don’t walk or find new dogs to walk, I can’t pay rent. I can’t just go shopping the way I used to, or even buy all the groceries I want. It’s not like before where I can just sit at a desk and do whatever the F and still get a paycheck every month. My ass gotta walk and hustle hard. If I want more for myself, I can’t be stuck with a minimum wage ass mindset. If being a boss was easy, everyone would be doing it.
Though it’s important to be mindful of your feelings, the tricky thing is feelings aren’t always reflective of reality. Sometimes our mind and emotions f*ck with us and tell us we aren’t good enough, xyz… My battle has been trying to detach myself from those feelings. But u know, this is how life is sometimes and these are necessary growing pains that we must overcome. Times like these will come again, but I remind myself”This too shall pass”. Often times, people become impatient and want to give up because positive and wishful thinking doesn’t manifest into immediate success. and Of Course not! Positive thinking doesnt yield results, WORK does. and it’ll be hard, but just take it day by day, one thing at a time.
Having the support and encouragement of others is great, but it also has to come from yourself. I looked at my Fitbit Dashboard for the first time in a while, and up to date, I’ve walked 2.3 MILLION steps and 1,000 miles. Fitbit gave me a new badge showing I walked the entire distance of New Zealand! My own research shows this also is Seoul to Taipei, Seattle to a little past San Jose, CA, or New York to Jacksonville, FL. I walked in the summer lookin like I never really dried off from my shower, to now with a red ass nose and holes in my Nikes lol but numbers don’t lie and I’m proud of what I’ve accomplished. This is not to say I’m all happy and good now, but it will always be a work in progress!
I’ll end with this.
“You cannot let a fear of failure, or a fear of comparison, or a fear of judgment, stop you from doing what’s going to make you great. You cannot succeed without this risk of failure. You cannot have a voice without the risk of criticism, and you cannot love without the risk of loss. You must go out and you must take these risks. And people will tell you to do what makes you happy. and I’m not always happy. And I don’t think you should always do what makes you happy. I think you should do what makes you great. Do what’s uncomfortable… and scary, and hard, but pays off in the long run. Be willing to fail. Let yourself fail. Fail in the ways in the way and place you want to fail. Fail, pick yourself up , and fail again. Because without this struggle, what is your success anyway? As best we know it, we have one life. In it, you have to trust your own voice, your own ideas, your honesty, your vulnerability, and through this you will find your way. YOU DO NOT HAVE TO BE FEARLESS, just don’t let fear stop you.” – Charlie Day
Stay true to who you are and trust your gut. It’s okay to be hard on yourself from time to time, but don’t forget to love yourself either ❤
Thanks again for all the support. xx